why the title?

Well, it all started around the end of the last trip to Kenya in 2006. I was in a funk for a long time, I might even be so bold as to say I never really came out of that funk. Last year I was visiting my mother and asked her how she would feel if I was called to Kenya full time.
"God would never do that to me!" was her exact quote.
The idea of going into the mission field full time has been creeping up on me for a good six months now. My fall trip back to Kenya has been cancelled/postponed due to the post-election violence and so mom and I were free to plan a vacation in Spain we had talked about.
My friend Todd suggested checking out the Young Life military base club while we're there. Why, I don't know. But I got on the Young Life website and found a position open in the Basque region of Spain and all the signs I had been ignoring for the last year finally started flashing in bright neon.
GO INTO MISSIONS FULL TIME!!!!
So, I've started the process and I'll be heading to Georgia in a couple weeks to the Young Life International info meeting.
What could be more perfect? Me, working with teenagers, in a foreign country??!!?? Nothing, that's what!!!
So, again... why the title? Because I finally feel as if I'm seeking my true calling. I always said that "I'm not called to missions." But on the field is where I'm most fulfilled and where else would God want me? Thus, my first life, the one I should have been living all along, is now going to begin in the second half of my life. But at least I'm old enough and wise enough to do it with more maturity. (Don't laugh, yeah, I said maturity!)
On top of all that, mom is on board!
I REALLY want that job in Spain, but I will go whereever God sends me and I know everything is in His hands.
It's going to be a roller coaster.
I'm in the process of readying my house for sale as well as all the other stuff I own. I also turned off my television service last night. CRAZY! No T.V.? I'll survive.
I'll keep you posted...